by MC Barnes
actually, i’ve been crying. just a little when you leave or when
my mom calls or when my mom hangs up or when you tell me
you just don’t feel that way or when i try and see myself or when
i really think about how a clock works or when i watch buffy the
vampire slayer or when i think about how we used to play dolls
or when i’m alone or when i’m with you. i think i’m emotionally
maturing or maybe i’ve just been wearing the same pair of
contacts for two months. either way – there’s no winner. no
balloons pouring down and no birthday cake. i could sing to
myself. i have to get a new pair of contacts i have to get out of
my bed i have to charge my phone i have to learn my
optometrists phone number i have to learn how to call people on
the phone i have to call i have to find my prescription i have to
order the contacts please, thank you very much, have a nice day i
have to open my front door i have to lock my front door i have to
learn how to walk down my stairs without running i have to walk
in a straight line i have to pick them up i have to focus focus
focus enough to pop them into my waiting i need to realize the
contacts were not the wet i need to stop blaming what’s not the
issue i need to become okay with the hitch that premeditates the
wet i might need to be cast into a wholly new figurine i need to
envision a figurine with waterproof eyes. or i could just lie
and let pool. bathing suits not required. go for a swim.
MaryCharlotte “MC” Barnes is a New York based student who got tired of people shortening her name, so she did it herself. She spends her time sharing her unpopular music opinions on her radio show and sometimes writing. You can find her on Twitter @mc_barnes_